mam jijit: aju kay nilungtad pod ka anang sitwasyon sa ITS SAFE yor?
me: mao gyud ni nga trabaho akong gipangita mam... (way labot ang pgpangita ug among sweldo. hehehe)
mam jijit: ah... so advocate ka ug social enterprise/social development...
That's it. It took me 5 years to discover my calling. It has always been my desire to help people to help themselves thru what God has given me.It's like using your own talents for the benefit of others. I believe that people are meant for each other. One can not live for himself alone. For what purpose will there be for our parents, brothers, sisters, friends, bf/gf, husband, wife...so on... if we are only to live for our own?
My first job has contributed much to who I am today.That was the perfect job for a fresh graduate. I owe the Alturas Group of Companies for the technical know how that I have learned. And my first boss, Mr. Leonard Alturas, is still #1 on my list. It took me until 2011 to be free from the feeling of guilt for leaving the company when he needed me the most. For now, I could freely greet him for every chance of meeting at ICM.
The 2nd job was a dream come true. I wanted to be a teacher in food technology. Indeed, I became one. I had this crazy bond with my students. In fact, I never felt that I was a teacher. I was there to share. Sometimes I forget that I was paid to do it. But still, there was something missing. And so, I prayed.
This 3rd job is the answer. It came when I never really expected it. I was just temporarily happy bumming around until an afternoon call changed the course of my career. This job is exactly what I prayed for. I am able to share what I have, for other people to learn and get inspired by it. And with that spark of inspiration, they'd eventually do something about it which in turn would inspire another one, and another one, and many more... like a butterfly effect.
But life is all about balance. Fulfillment in this type of work entails so much sacrifices; physical, mental, emotional, and psychological bruises. (that is, if ur heart is in it) The burden that I am carrying is so heavy it got me stuck. And so it cripples me. I became ineffective and inefficient. I can not think properly, and it affects my every move. My work is a mess. Everything I do is not anymore the best that I should have done.
In my work, I get to wear so many hats. Before, I was amazed by it because every hat looked good on me. I just realized that this is not the best of me. I am not good of wearing many of them. I would always miss the original hat,the one that I have always been wearing and what makes people identify me as me.
I hope I'd be able to work again. Work, meaning to work in all my capabilities without getting burned out and to work with passion as a fuel.
You may interpret this post as a brag, an inspiration, a fact, a relevant act, or whatever. But this is an honest to goodness story telling of one's own work experience. You may, or may have no related stories to this but trust me, you wouldn't want it to happen to you. So as early as now, try to think and feel which way you wanna go.
Now stop reading this crap. I told you, this is not for you.
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