Have you ever met a person who desires to die and be with the Creator? Who has already prepared her funeral rites while she's still alive? Who dreams of coming home to heaven and being welcomed by Mother Mary? Who is visited in a dream by a dead relative and was told to prepare because she'll be the first to die among her siblings? Yeah, it seems so morbid. Really really morbid. But this friend of mine seems so excited and cheerful about it. I never asked her why. She just told me that... She has always been attracted to death. There is something about it that makes her feel at home. And besides, she has lived her life fully with no hang ups or whatsoever. And she has this intuition that she won't live that long... And she told me stories that sort of chilled down my spines about her near death. And it slowed me down a bit. I admit, I'm a little bit afraid to die. Not because I don't know where to go in the after life (at least for now, I have the idea) but because of the loved ones I'd be leaving behind. If I'd go first before my husband, I would worry so much about him missing me and I wonder if there would be someone out there to take my place. And then there is my little one, My Owee, what would it be without his Mama? If I can only be assured for them, then I'd be ready to go Home. And I also admit that I have this feeling that I won't live that long too. I don't know why. I just feel it. I've always wanted to write about it but part of me says no. Maybe that's the coward me. Afraid to leave. But after that conversation, I am one step braver to embrace death. Does it sound morbid to you? Maybe because you're not yet ready too. hehehe....
Life 101: Death is a Homecoming. We must prepare for it, just like preparing to go home from a very nice month-long vacation. Drop your hang ups. Forgive yourself, forgive others and ask for it to those whom you had trouble with. LIVE and LOVE fully. Be intimate with God.
